Oh yes, I listen to western music, shocking, right?


There is quite a big number of people that don't like Taylor. I think that people love to hate her, I bet they heard like one song of hers and started bashing her because media did so. Those who genuinely don't like her music are very rare exceptions. It's apparently cool to make stupid videos full of hateful spit just because she's Taylor. Y'all, she dated Tom, you jelly?


I wasn't a big of hers some four or so years ago, but since she released her 1989 album, I've been in love. And this new Taylor is even better!
Now, she is someone who is owning her reputation, she is rocking the lying snake image everyone slapped on her. She basically took every bad thing that was said/written/done to her, made a cocoon out of it and transformed into this beautiful lady who does not care. And she has every right not to care.


People are gonna hate her just because or because their favourites don't like her, but I think it's pretty stupid, all these fandom wars. But still better than South Korea, right?

The song itself has a very Halloween-esque beginning, and honestly, don't expect any building shattering high notes or some amazing vocal work. What makes this song so great is the almost spoken chorus, teasing and eyebrow-raised toned. The bridge is what makes me happy, it's sung almost linear but it just works! The whole is very simple vocal-wise, but the atmosphere is what plays the leading role here. It's dark, teasing, really reminds me of noire songs with a lil' bit of r'n'b thrown in there. 

Taylor is a queen and she deserves nice things. 

I think this song is so empowering! I love this style of songs, just don't care about people's toxic opinions. If they don't like her, yeah, so what. She has a tube full of diamonds in which she can cry~ (I am aware that originally, she was supposed to sit in a tube full of pearls, but, whatever, upgrade!).  

The video is seriously visual goals, all those crystal chandeliers, guys rocking those high heels (probably my favourite part of the whole video, right after the ending), having a golden car, just being glamorous and delivering a fucking important message - people can try dragging you down, you just have to rise from the dead, be reborn and throw their hate right back into their face because you're better than before! #Queengoals #HatersToTheLeft

Clothing is my passion and I breathe dress! But you know, choosing my favourite, really? I love everything!

Today's topic is favourite dress ♥

Kill me now. Choosing one is simply impossible, because, have you seen Kalafina? Their dresses are pure perfection! I would marry their stylist in a hearbeat.

And that's why I simply refuse to have one favourite dress, I am gonna list three which I really love. Period. Because I can :D

The first one is~

Their 2013 Christmas dresses. White big dress and red belt? Oh hell yeah!!! I want to make love to these dresses, I want to marry these dresses, I want to have these dresses' baby.

Next are their newest - the Hyakka Ryoran outfits! I wan so excited once Kalafina said they are gonna make a single inspired by the traditional Japanese music. And once I saw their outfits I knew these are gonna be one of my most favourites! ♥

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The last ones are their 'far on the water' live dresses. I just love the rhinestones and the bling of these! They are so beautiful! I think I love Hikaru's dress the most because of the colour - hello there, the most beautiful shade of purple to ever exist~ 

You know, I could go all day about how their various outfits are the most beautiful and amazing to ever exist, but yeah, I said three and so here you have my top three! ♥

Honourable mentions:

Consolation

'The Best ...' 

The famous ancient Red Moon dresses

I am also happy that Arisu like my photos, and I am looking forward to our next collab~

In the meantime, once again, CHECK HER OUT HERE!!! ♥

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As if choosing one song wasn't hard enough, here we are with just another easy question.

Favourite album~!

Ladies and gentlemen, I am the Queen of not-being-able-to-choose-a-damn-thing-even-if-I-had-one-choice. 

Every album of Kalafina's is different, we have hauntingly fairy-taleish Red Moon and Seventh Heaven, After Eden in which Kalafina gives birth to their more mainstream sound, Consolation that was just good, and more experimental far on the water, not counting The Best Blue and Red, Kalafina with strings etc.

If I just take the album with the greatest number of my favourite songs, I guess that the answer to the initial question would have to be...

I know, it surprised me too, because I'm know for my love for everything Red Moon related. And here I am choosing different album... Shame on me! 

Anyways, let's break down the tracklist.

al fine is the intro melody. I have to say that ouverture from Seventh Heaven is my most favourite intro song, but al fine is fine too~ (sorry for the horrible pun, my crack game is not so strong this week...). It's just standard and I feel like I was transported into an abandoned house in the middle of forest that has a long and forgotten happy history. The melodies the girls who lived there once can be heard when the moon is out and beautifully shining.

Consolation, the title song, was once not really liked by me. But then I saw the live performances and yup, you guessed it, I was mesmerized. The lyrics are what sold me in the end, though. This song is about accepting pain and suffering, asking why the God is so cruel, about being on a journey till the heart is satisfied even though it's known that their final wish will not be granted, but still believing that the Lord will hear their wish. The lyrics do not explicitly say that the god in question is Christian God and I quite like it this way, people have absolutely no reason to be butthurt (even though they will be, people have this amazing quality of being offended by anything). 

The song gives me courage to just go on and fight whatever comes my way, even though there are some voices telling me that in the end everything will just come apart and my wish will never become true. Well, suck it, destiny, I have Kalafina and I will kick your balls so hard your back will have a new set of boobs!

moonfesta is an amazing song! It's happy and you just have this need to have a party with forest animals inside said forest while the moon shines on. Teaparties with bunnies are so over-rated. Here come the teaparties with goats! Hell yeah, that's my jam!

Door makes me sad. It's about loosing someone and reminiscing about the good ol' days. Wakana's voice is beautiful as always, tragic and full of nostalgia. I can just picture sitting in a chair, watching the rain fall, tea beside me, thinking about past, feeling that hurt practically rip me apart but still smiling a sweet smile because the memories are good. Ah, now I made myself cry, moving on!

Mirai is remade Credens Justitiam from the Madoka soundtracks. Many people say this song scares them, but I have Mirai connected to Mami and her cheerful smiles, fighting while being the innocent older sister, never giving up, doing everything for others. It's about heading towards the future while acknowledging the world is a terrible and dark place, but still, the future shines and so just let's go toward the light!

Hanataba is the reason why this album is my most favourite. This song made me cry. Repeatedly! And I am not even lying! The second half is usually spend trying to control my emotions. 

Okay, cheesy teenager confession time. Once, I read this absolutely amazing and heart-wrenching Vampire Knight fanfiction called The belly full of blood and near the end is a scene in which Zero leaves Kaname and goes off to save the world and the vampire race and to loose his life because he is a sacrificing idiot like that. When I read this scene, him leaving, running through the forest, Kaname waking up, finding Zero gone, everyone just collectively loosing their shit, I was listening to this song. And let's give Pavlov a cookie, because he was right and now the sadness I was experiencing while reading the fic is dragging me through the feelsland everytime this song plays.

Oh yeah, and also, accordion! Accordion!!!  It's a beautiful instrument and masterfully added to the song. Hanataba is my second most favourite song ever, the end ♥

Signal is the most kick-ass song Kalafina ever recorded, IMHO. It has this fuck it all attitude I love in songs. It's about going forward, being fucking angry, just going on and on, there is a tiny light near the ocean and I am gonna protect it because if I fuck it up just as I fucked up everything before I am not gonna forgive myself, because all the suffering of the past is my fuel. Yeah, amazing!

obbligato was never my favourite, but the it grew on me. Especially Wakana's 3:47 part with all those hauntigly beautiful high notes that are even higher that her normal high. In music language, obbligato is a part of a musical piece that should not be omitted under any circumstances. Basically, this song is about two lovers that are unable to become one, lamenting. There are so many references to music and notes that one can just guess who or what is the obbligato part of the love of those two. Amazingly different song ♥

Kiichigo no Shigemi ni is so freaking sad. The piano melody is love, the cello melody is pure sex (yeah, I love the cello parts), and the song is about lamenting the end of summer days, probably summer love, and just about everything that vanishes. It's sad song but on the other hand, it's incredibly calming. One of my most played!

Manten!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sorry, I am excited, this song was used in Fate/Zero (one of my most favourite animes ever because I love everything Fate related!), and also this song my third favourite on this album, and is absolutely in my Top 10. The melody of the chorus is what makes me happy and the bridge is what I am living for. The song is once again (how surprising...) about the tragedy of living and the end of all things, but at the same time I can feel the rightness of that. Everything ends, dreams end and that's okay, because it's life. Toptop ♥

to the beginning  makes me happy, too. It gives me that feeling of starting over, because there is gonna be another miracle, and even though comfort is there, I don't give a fuck, I just go on and protect and be with my favourite person. The finish line is so far away that Asgard called an intruder alert, but hey, whatever, let's just go on, because I am gonna be with the person even though cold flames might burn us. 

...I should start writing lyrics, me retelling feelings is absolutely the best.

I love this song, tho! ♥

Hikari Furu is pain and suffering and everything white hot and unicorn tears rolled into one song. It's beautiful and amazing and so fucking gorgeous but it hurts. And makes me cry. I think that vocals in this song are superb, the girls did such an amazing job on this song, the melodies are everything beautiful, the emotions are killing me but that's okay, because this song is so beautiful it can kill me and dehydrate me and I will die with a smile on my face because this song is love!

Yume no Daichi is a strange song. It's calming on hand, but on the other hand it can kick my ass into action. I love the percussion and I think that it's a welcomed calm break after all that pain and suffering of other songs on this album. All in all, I think this song is mediocre but perfect on this album. It gives this feeling of the land of dream being near, one just has to stretch out their arms and everything will be okay.

Phew, I just did a review on the whole album. In the end, I can see how this is my favourite album :D The song flow together beautifully and I feel like no song is out of place. This album makes sense as a whole! ♥

So the other day me and my dear friend Mitsu (all hail MTsu, the one and only lolita queen! *insert the national anthem here*) and her boyfriend went to visit one of my colleagues at Lednice castle. It's a beautiful place, I really love it! Maybe a bit overused, but whatever, I like it ♥

Anyways, we went there and I had to take some pictures of Mitsu in the gardens. We got there like one/two hours before the sun set and so I was blessed with a window of beautiful golden light time. And then I was cursed because I haven't got my tripod with me and the window was like five seconds long and so I had to improvise and out of the two hundred shots I took, only about seventeen was okay.

But that doesn't matter! I am glad I was able to take some nice pics of MTsu~ She's always a great model, she knows her good side, her poses, really, one can only stand and click away and she will just dance around being all beautiful and model-y :D

It was my first photoshoot with me behind the camera so I was kind of scared of how it will turn out (especially since the sun was so agreeable, thanks bro, really glad you could help!), but I think, subjectively, that in the end I got some pretty shots, learned a ton of new things and I am so glad I was able to shoot with MTsu! ♥

!!!MTsu's homepage is here!!! Go visit that beautiful lady ♫

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Warning: This article is full of swear words, some people can get offended, and I am COMPLETELY HONEST. That means I don't give a fuck if you don't like my opinions or not. I am also calling so much bullshit out, but that's normal for me. Read at your own discretion. 

But hey, maybe this will be motivational for someone. Who knows.

Also, this is the first in my 'not giving a fuck' series. I plan on writing these motivational posts about fashion and general lifestyle. Because people are giving too many fucks. 

People often describe me as 'that one who doesn't give a fuck'. Except for my friends. They know I give maybe too much fucks, given my anxiety friend over there in the corner, a round of applause for him!

Or at least, I gave too many fucks. In the last few months I've learned how to subtly simply not give a fuck. There are times when I change into a bag full of cats just coming down from caffeine high after being drowned in the good ol' lake Anxiety in the Land of Throwing up your last breakfast. But I am getting better!

Thanks to my 'I don't have any fucks left to give since it's Thorsday and I ran out of them like the last time I read Civil War' attitude. 

It started when I got serious about my clothing brand. Until that time I was so fucking scared of everyone judging me, my parents hating me and my colleagues back at the university laughing at me. But then i saw my creations on the catwalk and I knew that's it. But when I came back to lab I knew that working with microorganisms was it. I wanted both. And I said fuck it, I am gonna get both. And so I got onto this really difficult road of juggling two career paths, being a designer genius on one hand and a fluorescence expert on the other was not easy. Many times I didn't know if I chose wisely. And just as many times I said fuckit!!! and just went on. I am so damned happy to have such great friends (Temi, Yuzu, Mari, Mitsu, Iva - I am looking at you!!! ♥) who let me literary word-vomit in their presence and just dump all of my fears onto their living room floor. 

I wanted to create a lolita haute couture, so I started to do just that. It's my escape from the world, from all of my problems, nothing but me and tiny manual work. And people loving my creations? Even better! I am goddamn proud of my babies, I would even say that I am better than like 80% of people creating costumes in Czechia, so I thought to myself 'why the fuck should I not take this chance and just do whatever the fuck the talented me wants?'. And so I gave birth to an haute couture brand and decided that my creations would be for sale. 

Then, of course just to add myself more goddamn stomach ulcers, I had to go and get interested in photography. And so I just fly around taking photos of everyone and learn everything I can because hey, I think my ideas are good and with enough practice I will get somewhere freaking high~!

And so I became a full time seamstress, designer and photographer with my eyes set on Paris's runways and London's galleries.

On the other hand, my PhD. was a really important for me because of many reasons. I've always has issues with self-confidence, and I wanted my parents to have that perfect daughter and to just show my siblings that I am just as great as they are, to show the whole family, in fact, that I am the best and they can go and choke on their hate towards me. Also, I will be completely honest, the awe of others in the lolita community feels good. BUT! Most importantly I was always a science geek. Once upon a time I wanted to go and study astrophysics but then I thought, that's just like all theory and I am too lazy. And so I chose chemistry. Then I chose microorganisms. Then I chose fluorescnce. And here I am! I love it. The work is stressful, many times I wanted to quit, but then I always remember the love (somewhere deep inside buried under all that gay porn, I am sure it is there!) I have for science and somehow I just push through. And then I am sitting back in my room, with a steaming cup of coffee and chillstep on, working on the data and it somehow makes sense! I know perfectly well how Tony felt the first time he flew in one of his suits ♥ Here at postgraduate I have so many opportunities to play with fluorescence and bacteria and to just try out my own ideas, it's perfect. Frustrating, but perfect in the end.

And so I became a full fledged PhD. student with my eyes set on lab work in the future.

People tell me I can't. But I tell them that I motherfucking can and will.

That's my art of not giving a fuck. People's disapproval of my career choices and the difficulties of my chosen life are strewn around like seeds in motherfucking springtime. Sometimes I lie in my bed totally worn out because I did too many things, with my health almost non-existent because I just need to be busy all the fucking time, and think is this it? And I answer yeah, that's it for me! No regrets!

Basically, I have to concentrate on two times the things normal people have, with two jobs and everything, but it's fun. I am not overly sociable (hah, 'not overly' she says, more like an antisocial freak who hates almost everyone) and my mind is always buzzing with new ideas to sometimes even sleep properly (people tell me I  'need to sleep more'. But yeah, try to do that when your mind is a fucking circus on steroids with too many acts going on at once every hour of the day, and that circus doesn't have any damn nightime), and so having this not one but two safe spaces where I can be one or the other half of myself is great. Hard, but I chose it, so it's okay.

I know that my health is not the best. I have weak and not fully functioning heart, no gallbladder, bad lung condition and my blood is a work of what-the-fuck-how-can-you-be-aliveness for fuck's sake. And don't let me start on the issue of my mental health. I don't have anything quite resembling mental health in my life-bag. Maniodepression, anxiety disorder, suicidal tendencies, eating disorder, yeah, a great cocktail for success if I say so myself!

But I think that all of this is exactly what gave me the strength to go on. I knew that I could just drop off anytime and the life is so fucking short to not have a motherfucking party with every goddamn 'bad decision' I apparently made in my life. 

They told me I couldn't do it.

I told them to go and suck someone instead of wasting their life on giving bad advice.

I honed the art of fuckery and I slowly became comfortable when being different. I have many more important things to give a fuck about that my career choice. I decided. And I will fucking stick with that choice even if it kills me (sadly, that is a complete truth according to my doctors).

There are many people that act like dumbasses when giving fucks about things that don't deserve having a fuck given about. I hate that sort of people and so I said, Imma do my own thing.

The moral of this story is - if you want something, just get it! If you are willing to go to hell and back and than to hell again through the village of getting-your-ass-handed-back-to-you, you win! If you are willing to be hated for you choices by idiots with no lives, you are the real hero of your life. If you want something so bad and you know that's fucking it and you have the guts to go for it, then, my dear Frodo, you are the biggest goddamn motherfucker on this planet and you win the fucking lottery.